24 Months Without My Mom!
Today marks two years since my mom transitioned to be with the Lord. Approximately 48 hours before she passed, I could not sleep. My spirit was restless. The Holy Ghost awakened me, and He said these exact words. "Prepare yourself; I am getting ready to take your mother home." I wanted to believe what I heard wasn't true. I wanted to think that it was all in my head and or just my emotions. But I knew on the inside that it was true, and I had to prepare myself.
Two weeks prior, I kept hearing the LORD say, prepare a eulogy. But I would rebuke it every time I heard it. I was trying to convince myself that it wasn't the voice of the LORD. When I got that call in the morning on Sunday, 11/22/20, from the Doctor, I knew it was true. I felt like my soul had left my body for a few seconds and returned in.
At that point, all familiar emotions came over me because I had been here about five years before when I lost my dad. My heart physically hurt to the touch. The pain that aches the heart when you lose a parent is literal, especially if you were close to them and had a good relationship with them.
I had to be strong to make the funeral arrangements and, of course, prepare that Eulogy. I was able to eulogize my mom and command her body to dirt. I did what I knew my mother would want me to do. And I know that if she were here, she would be pleased. Her memory will forever be cherished in my heart.
There are so many things I miss about my mom. She is still a regular topic amongst my children and me in my home. Her memory is cherished, and her mantle remains in the earth, worn by me, my sisters, and her grandchildren. I have her spirit of strength, wisdom, strictness, reading the bible regularly, dreaming, and cooking. LOL, my mom could burn. I miss hearing her deep southern Alabama accent. I miss her getting on my nerves. I miss her stubbornness. I miss my mom. I am honoring her memory today. I am reflecting on her life and the joy she brought to me and those around her.
The death of a mother is not easy to deal with, but by God's grace, I have made it through. I don't cry nearly as much as I used to when I think of her. And when I do, like at this moment as I am writing this blog post, it's tears of joy, not sadness. Whenever I open up my book "What God Is Saying About Your Dreams!" I get to see the first dreamer that I knew—my mom.
If you have recently lost someone you love dearly, know that you are on my mind and in my prayers today. I am praying for those who recently have lost loved ones and for others who feel the sting of grief from time to time.
"For we know that when this earthly tent we live in is taken down (that is, when we die and leave this earthly body), we will have a house in heaven, an eternal body made for us by God himself and not by human hands.
2 We grow weary in our present bodies, and we long to put on our heavenly bodies like new clothing.
3 For we will put on heavenly bodies; we will not be spirits without bodies.
4 While we live in these earthly bodies, we groan and sigh, but it's not that we want to die and get rid of these bodies that clothe us. Rather, we want to put on our new bodies so that these dying bodies will be swallowed up by life.
5 God himself has prepared us for this, and as a guarantee he has given us his Holy Spirit.
6 So we are always confident, even though we know that as long as we live in these bodies we are not at home with the Lord. 7 For we live by believing and not by seeing.
8 Yes, we are fully confident, and we would rather be away from these earthly bodies, for then we will be at home with the Lord.
9 So whether we are here in this body or away from this body, our goal is to please him.
10 For we must all stand before Christ to be judged. We will each receive whatever we deserve for the good or evil we have done in this earthly body. - 2 Cor 5:1-10